We part

The moment we part,
will come through the dark,
to turn our memories into pain.
The pain I feel
is proof we were once here.

We were just 'two different people'
When can we be together again
Make our love a sequal

Like jelly beans
stuck together
Add some glue
We're in it forever
I have ached for and with you


In my dreams
You whisper I love you in my ears
I turn around and your not there
I cry
I know it was your voice
With love between us

Don't worry, Be Happy

During the test I don’t know what I wrote
Even though I studied from note to note
Don’t worry be happy
Got pink form you know it trouble
Got a call from HEP you make it double
Don't worry, be happy

You study until you crack your head
There are books and notes beside your bed
Don't worry, be happy
You completed your assignment very late
Its quality is very bad
Don't worry, be happy
Look at me I am happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me
I make you happy
don’t worry, be happy
You didn’t do well in your test
Even though you studied hard and tried your best
But don't worry be happy
Because when you worry
your face will frown
and that will bring everybody down
so don't worry, be happy (now).....

Sitting On The Edge

The ray of sun touches my face
The moment is so beautiful that I wish I could save
The sun emerges with a slow pace
A comfortable warm that I sense on my face

A calm wind blew pass my body
The wind’s movement, I wish I could see
Smooth as silk the wind’s texture
This feeling install me for an adventure.

Sick

Sinking in the sea of pain
Illness that i gain
Clenching myself to stand this unbearable pain
Keeping myself alive, the situation i am in.

23/0/09

Stop and Listen

Papa: So, how is Nina?
Me: what? Oh… ok. Both of us are fine.
Papa: Argue x?
Me: Normal lah pa org berkapel.
Papa: Hahaha. Skng?
Me: x argue pun. Biasa je.
Papa: ala, mama and papa pun argue juga. Tapi papa x melawan. Papa dengar je and malas nak membebel. Biar mama je marah. Bagi dia luahkan ape yg dia x puas ati, kita dengar, cuba paham dia and pujuk dia.
Me: Ahh, pa. I think you don’t need to tell me that.
Papa: eh, why?
Me: I got that from you.
Papa: ohh! Ok. Do you need to know anything?
Me: errmmmm…… sex?
Papa: ...............gatal.

Well, everybody experience conflicts between their loved one sometimes. It is how we handle it give different result. My relationship with Nina teaches me valuable lessons: lower your ego, the power of listening and don’t resist. I learn that if you try to argue with your love, try to prove you are right and don’t even try to listen what she is saying, it only cause blunder. It will not solve anything. Good things about conflict with your loved one is that you understand your partner and yourself even more and you become mature in life if you handle carefully. Most women not really want their man to solve the problem, but they actually want their man to listen or understand what they have been through. They want a listener. What I have learned from this relationship is to learn to listen to your partner in an open, nondefensive way. Give your partner space for expressing herself. Be present. Accusing, defending and attacking will only strengthen your ego and only provoke your loved one. It will not solve anything. It is better for man not to attack their woman. Just try to listen. Analyse the situation, remove your emotion.
I’m not sure whether I have become mature from this relationship. I wish I am.

Identification with Your Mind

3 months ago, I came across this book. The title of the book is ‘The Power of Now’ by Eckhart Tolle. It was shown in Oprah Show and this book has become an international bestseller. It is a guide to spiritual enlightment (it is not creating a new religion, trust me) but what fascinated me is that he said a lot of conflict, war and other predicaments are cause by our mind. In other words, identification with your mind. This what Eckhart Tolle says.
“Identification with your mind, which causes thought to become compulsive. Not to be able to stop thinking is a dreadful affliction, but we don’t realize this because almost everybody is suffering from it, so it is considered normal. This incessant mental noise prevents you from finding that realm of inner stillness that is inseparable from Being. It also creates a false mind-made self that casts a shadow of fear and suffering.
The philosopher Descartes believed that he had found the most fundamental truth when he made his famous statement: “I think, therefore I am.” He had, in fact, given expression to the most basic error: to equate thinking with being and identify with thinking. The compulsive thinker, which means almost everyone, lives in a state of apparent separateness, in an insanely complex world of continuous problems and conflict, a world that reflects the ever-increasing fragmentation of the mind. Enlightment is a state of wholeness, of being “at one” and therefore at peace. At one with life in its manifested aspect, the world, as well as with your deepest self and life unmanifested – at one with Being. Enlightment is not only the end of suffering and of continuous conflict within and without, but also the end of the dreadful enslavement to incessant thinking. What an incredible liberation this is.
Identification with your mind creates an opaque screen of concepts, labels, images, words, judgments and definitions that blocks all true relationship. It comes between you and yourself, between you and your fellow man and woman, between you and nature, between you and God. It is this screen of thought that creates the illusion of separateness, the illusion that there is you and a totally separate “other”. You then forget the essential fact that, underneath the level of physical appearances and separate forms, you are one with all that is. By ‘forget’, I mean that you no longer feel this oneness as self-evident reality. You may believe it to be true, but you no longer know it to be true. A belief may be comforting. Only through your own experience, however, does it become liberating.
I am not sure whether this book is kind of atheist or spiritual book.